I am always a mixture of profound gratitude mixed with this desire for more. More adventures, more wonder, more magic✨ So when life is slow, I am seeking. I wonder what would happen if I stopped seeking and allowed God to provide the experiences I’m trying so hard to constantly create. What if I just allow today to be?
When I look at my pictures of my daughter and our life; a life I created with no money, working crazy weird jobs while helping to care for a parent spiraling into the depths of dementia, I feel so proud❤️ we never take the time to see our successes. To watch my happy girl, or the irrational joy I feel at seeing a shooting star, or the family of ducks in my backyard. I feel total pride in seeing how my father has fought to find happiness after losing his wife of 55 years. I have spent the last year and a half taking his towel off the rack where he threw it and folding it into thirds, just as he always taught me. I know when he feels better he will remember and one day I will walk in and he will have done it himself.
I am seeking God’s provision in our lives. I want to go in the direction I am supposed to go. I want to see shooting stars and miracles that I know are from God. I am so grateful I get to be the one to care for these people. For every moment of laughter, for every unexpected surprise. I am proud of who I am and my heart that loves. A woman said recently that whenever you feel scared say out loud “I am the daughter of a king, protect me.”
I am the daughter of a king❤️ look out for us. Direct me to the place you want me to be. I’m ready.
You are magical already, Heidi. Look around at what you’ve done. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that this very moment, whatever it is, is already a miracle.
HeidiBond❤ 