Magical words

I find my clarity in the silence of early mornings, I get my coffee and I usually write or pray. For a very long time I have prayed for a protector. For as long as I can remember, I have sought out a person who would bring me peace; a sense of safety. That soul …

Everything is fine

It’s 3 am. The water in the bathroom has been running for over 30 minutes, and the smell of mint, so sickly and strong, fills my bedroom, and now it’s impossible to sleep. I hear shuffling feet and mumbling, and the anxiety I haven’t felt in years comes washing over me. My mom has dementia. …

Me

I thought this year I had it all figured out. I saw the unbelievable growth and miracles, and I thought I had turned the corner and was moving directly into my dream life. I figured God was like OK angels give her whatever she wants, she did it, she’s ready, we are proud of her! …

Surrender

Life is a near constant test…at least for me. I have lived in the depths of hell, and I have known profound happiness. These emotions were separated by two vastly different lives. The life in which I tried to do everything my way and the life in which I turned everything over to God before …

Faith.

I talk about God often because the works in my life have been very profound. The Bible talks about the renewal of your mind, and because my life has been a black and white version of that, I have no doubts… except when I do. Your mind is always looking for ways to rationalize magical …

Joy comes after you become you.

My life and my spirit have always been an exact reflection of my self-worth and inner state. You have to know with certainty who you are…the real you…to experience true and constant joy. I wonder sometimes if the pain I have experienced in my life was actually just God refining me towards a meaningful life …