Radiant✨

When I watch my daughter dance, all legs and limbs, I feel the most indescribable love mixed with a soft sadness for my own little self. She dances for joy. She has zero worries. She leaps and rolls and flails with the confidence of a professional. She is secure in her identity. She is never …

Magical in spite of myself✨

I am always a mixture of profound gratitude mixed with this desire for more. More adventures, more wonder, more magic✨ So when life is slow, I am seeking. I wonder what would happen if I stopped seeking and allowed God to provide the experiences I’m trying so hard to constantly create. What if I just …

What is life✨

I look around at people and the world and wonder what shaped them. I see my past filled with absolute terror and I look at my present where I feel so proud of who I have become. Life is so interesting and odd. I was reading one my my favorite authors Alain De Bottom and …

A mothers heart ♥️

We all need a mom. Someone who you can sit with when your world is falling apart or just someone to tell you that you look beautiful and everything is going to be ok. The one you call when your soul aches from loneliness and just her voice can ease a million bad dreams. She’s …

Jesus answered.

I was reading this book that I didn’t want to read and came across the line “We’d rather have the questions than the answers” I sat there realizing how much of my life that encompassed. I keep asking the same questions over and over instead of hearing the answer. Obviously, like a child, I just …

Are you willing to wait?

I’ve been waiting my entire life. I didn’t have the slightest idea what I was waiting for when I was little but I knew something was missing. I used to get panicked about going on trips or leaving the house because I felt certain I might miss out on this mysterious something that I was …

Yes

I started saying yes to God reluctantly. It wasn’t a yes in the beginning. I had no other options, so my yes became the only answer possible. There was a fair amount of screaming and foot stomping in the beginning. I remember when I was in the bath in the depths of hell. I was …

Fear

Everything that matters. Everything you will remember forever comes with a heavy dose of fear. Fear is actually so magical… It’s tied to wonder and wonder will always keep you enthralled. I need these emotions to feel, to feel alive. The wonder of seeing something beautiful or unexpected, the fear when trying something new or …

God told me to run😳

I am tired. Exhausted, actually. I work teaching kids how to ride horses, and many of the kids I teach have disabilities. I also homeschool and am an only parent and have what feels like 9000 animals. I recently told God how tired I was, and I heard “run.” Run? Ha! Yes, well, I haven’t …

Mom 12/21/23

My mom died at 1:32 this morning. She had gone to the hospital a week earlier with a very small stroke but had been home for 4 days. She was happy and laughing and so beautifully clear. She told us all she loved us and everything seemed so happy. Yesterday, around lunchtime she really wanted …