I am always a mixture of profound gratitude mixed with this desire for more. More adventures, more wonder, more magic✨ So when life is slow, I am seeking. I wonder what would happen if I stopped seeking and allowed God to provide the experiences I’m trying so hard to constantly create. What if I just …
Category Archives: scared
Future Perfect ✨
Everything is fast now. Once kids are older the world suddenly opens up and is filled to overflowing with school, pool, new people, endless wants! Summer has a new meaning to me and honestly, I am tired. I feel pretty disconnected too. I’ve been here before so I know it will be ok but last …
A mothers heart ♥️
We all need a mom. Someone who you can sit with when your world is falling apart or just someone to tell you that you look beautiful and everything is going to be ok. The one you call when your soul aches from loneliness and just her voice can ease a million bad dreams. She’s …
Jesus answered.
I was reading this book that I didn’t want to read and came across the line “We’d rather have the questions than the answers” I sat there realizing how much of my life that encompassed. I keep asking the same questions over and over instead of hearing the answer. Obviously, like a child, I just …
Are you willing to wait?
I’ve been waiting my entire life. I didn’t have the slightest idea what I was waiting for when I was little but I knew something was missing. I used to get panicked about going on trips or leaving the house because I felt certain I might miss out on this mysterious something that I was …
Yes
I started saying yes to God reluctantly. It wasn’t a yes in the beginning. I had no other options, so my yes became the only answer possible. There was a fair amount of screaming and foot stomping in the beginning. I remember when I was in the bath in the depths of hell. I was …
Fear
Everything that matters. Everything you will remember forever comes with a heavy dose of fear. Fear is actually so magical… It’s tied to wonder and wonder will always keep you enthralled. I need these emotions to feel, to feel alive. The wonder of seeing something beautiful or unexpected, the fear when trying something new or …
Signs
God, if my dreams are going to come true, let me see an orange starfish. ✨️ I was driving down the road literally panicking about the future, and I asked God to show me signs that it would be ok. We drove and drove on our way to a festival that I was much too …
God told me to run😳
I am tired. Exhausted, actually. I work teaching kids how to ride horses, and many of the kids I teach have disabilities. I also homeschool and am an only parent and have what feels like 9000 animals. I recently told God how tired I was, and I heard “run.” Run? Ha! Yes, well, I haven’t …
Can you hear me, Jesus?
I am in a new chapter. The experiencing God chapter. Well, the, I am seeking God with all of my heart chapter. I am seeking God above everything. I never realized that if you are seeking God, it is because he is seeking you. I never ever knew that that desire does not come from …
