Some of my deepest dreams have come true but they came true with the caveat of release. You will live your dream, Heidi, but it will be fleeting because none of these things belong to you. You will live on the ranch with the 50 horses, but you will just be helping, and you will …
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Magical in spite of myself✨
I am always a mixture of profound gratitude mixed with this desire for more. More adventures, more wonder, more magic✨ So when life is slow, I am seeking. I wonder what would happen if I stopped seeking and allowed God to provide the experiences I’m trying so hard to constantly create. What if I just …
Jesus answered.
I was reading this book that I didn’t want to read and came across the line “We’d rather have the questions than the answers” I sat there realizing how much of my life that encompassed. I keep asking the same questions over and over instead of hearing the answer. Obviously, like a child, I just …
Are you willing to wait?
I’ve been waiting my entire life. I didn’t have the slightest idea what I was waiting for when I was little but I knew something was missing. I used to get panicked about going on trips or leaving the house because I felt certain I might miss out on this mysterious something that I was …
Yes
I started saying yes to God reluctantly. It wasn’t a yes in the beginning. I had no other options, so my yes became the only answer possible. There was a fair amount of screaming and foot stomping in the beginning. I remember when I was in the bath in the depths of hell. I was …
In between miracles.
I write these lists of things I dream about or that I would love to do, and I tuck them into the pages of my bible. I write my prayers. It amazed me recently to see that I had checked off 90% of the ones I had written. Some were easy, like an adventure I …
I love you❤️
I woke up this morning covered in kitties with my daughter sprawled sideways across my bed. My sheets felt warm and soft, and my daughter’s hair smelled like flowers and coconut. What a dream… I didn’t care that an hour earlier I had stepped in cat food or that I had been woken up at …
Grief
My heart hurts. I can’t breathe. I will be ok in a little bit, but right now, sadness just floods my being. My mom looked completely herself 3 years ago. If you saw her today, you would think she was her mother. She has a genetic (apparently) type of dementia. She is disappearing right in …
My precious baby.
Sweet girl. I love you. I love you fiercely and protectively and beyond what the word love even encompasses. I have held your little self for 8 years. 8 years of sleeping 2 inches from you, 8 years of arguing about candy, 8 years of adventures that have been magical sometimes and often questionable. My …
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