Mom 12/21/23

My mom died at 1:32 this morning. She had gone to the hospital a week earlier with a very small stroke but had been home for 4 days. She was happy and laughing and so beautifully clear. She told us all she loved us and everything seemed so happy. Yesterday, around lunchtime she really wanted …

I love you❤️

I woke up this morning covered in kitties with my daughter sprawled sideways across my bed. My sheets felt warm and soft, and my daughter’s hair smelled like flowers and coconut. What a dream… I didn’t care that an hour earlier I had stepped in cat food or that I had been woken up at …

Grief

My heart hurts. I can’t breathe. I will be ok in a little bit, but right now, sadness just floods my being. My mom looked completely herself 3 years ago. If you saw her today, you would think she was her mother. She has a genetic (apparently) type of dementia. She is disappearing right in …

Magical words

I find my clarity in the silence of early mornings, I get my coffee and I usually write or pray. For a very long time I have prayed for a protector. For as long as I can remember, I have sought out a person who would bring me peace; a sense of safety. That soul …

The promise of wonder.

Negativity is contagious, but so is joy. The world is brutal and dark, but there are places filled with wonder and moments, so breathtaking, that for a second, you truly believe anything is possible ✨️ I did it. I got stuck in the whirlwind of darkness. I forgot that me waiting for the darkness to …